Why did I let my anger break me, why did I left the attitude of someone make me fail. I shouldn't have bought that bottle of Irish Cream, I shouldn't have drank it, I shouldn't have gambled. Three pound left till Monday what a pathetic excuse of a Mother I am!!!
Wanted to take the kids out for lunch today and because of my selfish stupidity I can't.
Wanted to go get some shopping, now I can't.
Wanted to get xmas goods, now I can't.
I think I'm broken beyond repair after all.
What am I going to do. Meant to be giving my daughter money I own her and I'm sat here thinking what lie can I make up. If I tell her the truth she won't come home for Christmas. Thinking what mates I can ask. I have no one. I have no one!
This big wide world, I am all alone.
My spirit is broken now.
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