Post 2 Another day

Ok, so if you're wondering what happened to the previous pages, I had trouble with blogger and only just got back into it!

To catch up, I've had various good days and bad days.

Tonight, I'm having a bad night because I have bought a bottle of wine and am feeling sorry for myself.  Why did I buy wine?  Well for one I got that Friday feeling and it seriously has been a long week, to the point it has seemed like Friday since Wednesday and secondly, I've not had any alcohol for two weeks.  Now that might not seem long, but i'm sure most of you know the score, hard day, get home and what do you do to unwind, have a wine with your dinner?

Apart from that I am hating myself because I've gone and blow all my money. Half of it getting into a happy place and half of it out of desperation, (OMG have I spent that much, better try to win it back!).

The last couple of weeks have been pretty positive.  I've gone out and bought paint to decorate and for the last week or so been trying to do my sons room.  That might not seem much but when you suffer with depression and an underactive thryoid and all you want to do is sleep, its big.  I've applied for two jobs, both of which I got offerered by the way (guess im not so bad).

My confidence must be steadily growing when I very confidently told all my current employers that I've just given in my notice and they all said "awwww, noooo" which I admit surprised me as I thought they didn't give two hoots.

I have spent all of my free time the last couple of nights, reading up on how to private label and sell your own product on Amazon.  I've watched a couple of webcasts which have annoyed me.  Mainly because it pretty much done what they were anticipating.  Reeled me in for 3 days, wasted my time watching video's, made me feel that Yes I can do that, I can make the life I dream of for my family, then bam! At the end this will cost ONLY $5K, Amazing Selling Machine,  Who say it is their mission to help everyone.

So I mail and say how keen I am, can I at least pay weekly or something?  I know I can make something of it.  I sourced my product I want to private label, its in the top 100 big selling catagory, I am negotiating a price with the manufacturer from Alibaba but I can't go further, 1 I don't have the money, 2 I don't know what to do next, please help me.  Answer, lol! Not on your life, (reading between the lines).

So then I take up an offer on Go Daddy, free month trial of an online shop. Give it a try.  Where the heck do I get the money for the products I want to sell!!!...

Going round in circles.

I mention GoDaddy as I already have a domain with them.  Celebrity Fanface, my other dream that I have been working on for over a year.  Check out my twitter @shlfance you might get a gist of what i'm trying to do there.  But that isn't going anywhere because its plan is to be an interactive site for celebrities and fans. In a nutshell, fans subscribe to buy their celebs products, my business plan estimates it would make MILLIONS for charities but yep, not going anywhere fast as unfortunately I don't have a filofax of celebs telephone numbers!

So my blog tonight, now its finally working again is why am I getting stuck on every plan I have, and its not the obvious that I don't have the funds, there must be another reason I'm not seeing.

Time to go to bed now and try to astral travel as I so need to see my Mum and my Sister, two people who I need to carry on.